Smoking was never a big issue for me. I had smoker friends, I tried smoking once and I used to inhale tons of 2nd-hand smoke everyday during army days. I even let one of my roomies smoke in the room. So why am I so angry and disappointed when she said she wanted to smoke? Is it because she said she wanted to despite knowing that there's nothing good about smoking? Is it because she is irresponsible, not thinking about the consequences? Or is it because I was unable to dissuade her from this thought? If I am able to accept other people smoking, why can't I accept the fact that she is also, in all aspects, one of the other people?

It sucks to see friends giving up on themselves. It sucks more not being able to help them. It sucks the most when instead of helping, I gave them a dressing-down.. Why I never manage to do things the right way? Maybe I should light one cigeratte now...




Figured it's time to change my blogskin and so this morning is spent on designing it... Hehz of course with help here and there from http://www.Blogskins.com. If you find it nice or extremely irritating or ugly, please tag to let me know (trying to save my tagboard at the same time =D)

Went to Lynn's birthday party last Sat and to my surprise, my tax tutor Prof Angela Tan still recognised me!! People seldom remember me so it felt quite good, especially when the person is the tutor whom you have a lot of respect for. I hope she remembered me not for bad reasons.. Haha.. Almost made a fool out of myself though. I was talking about Jessica Alba with Zhongyi and Ee Jun when Prof Tan called out to me. As usual, my mind didn't react in time and I almost called her Jessica Alba XD.

Most things did not go smoothly last week. Hope this week would be a better one. Happy birthday Miss Lee Cher, Candice and Lynn and my lao jie Huimin. And also to Joanne (Sorry cannot remember the exact date but I am very sure it's in Sept!). Also to Kennis, Seok Hui and Gwen whose birthdays had passed. And to people that I have missed out whose birthdays also fall in Sept. Happy birthday to all September babies =D.




Yesterday got a comment that I had not been updating my blog so shall waste some time blogging. Just finished my KFC meal and It feels good to have someone to connect to. I forgot to tell my brother yesterday night that I wanted KFC but he bought it today nonetheless... Although it's cos of the discount coupons and not me but whatever... Haha... Think it must feel good to have someone able to read your feelings and being able to synchronise with you... Never had this kind of friend before, now and I don't think I will have one in the future... My thoughts are rather.... Complicated(Weird)... Haha...

Connectivity is a complicated matter. It's not like chemical reaction where you will expect a certain results when certain chemicals are mixed. Neither it's like physics where things are being monitored by laws. It's more like being able to meet your Bo Le, someone who will recognise your talents, accept your flaws and appreciate you for who you are... High connectivity does not neccessarily mean good friendship.. There may even be negative feelings between the two parties...

Friendship and connectivity both cannot be measured and hence it's a judgement call for anyone trying to gauge these two things. One man's meat may well be another man's poison. They are NOT a reciprocal kinda relationship... Therefore people get hurt in the World of Friends. On the other hand, no one can ever survive the whole life journey without any friend. How many friends are needed for this journey is different for everyone. Everyone is looking for different kind of friendship.

Some people are looking for close friends,
Some people are looking for more friends,
Some people are just satisfied to be alone,
Some people are just looking for friends.

Too much time has been wasted... Back to the first moment of the rest of my life!!




In memory of Steve Irwin

One of the greatest environmentalist in the present time. RIP Steve you are always in my heart. His death sets me thinking. How will I die? Will I die while doing something meaningful? Will anyone remember me when I die? Will anyone weep for me if I die? It will be a tough week ahead.........




When you speak without thinking, you get unexpected outcomes. So starting from now, I think I shall do less talking and more listening. This way, I will not get any undesirable reaction from people that I truely care about. Ok, maybe blogging without thinking would also render the same type of reaction from people... hmmm.....

It's shining brightly outside
but it's raining on my face
People look happy and glad
while I wipe away tears of sorrow

I can own the world if I want
But what's the point of having an empty husk?
Life just goes on and on
yet my heart seems to be frozen back in time.....

Weiming
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